people really suck...i was one of about only 10 people that wore costumes today...knowing that this would happen, i didn't wear a real costume...just a skirt i made, some arm things, wings, a comfy shirt, and a tiara. why don't people dress up?! i remember at my 10th-12h grade schools we weren't allowed to dress up, but everyone wanted to and some people did! and now it's like we have all the freeom in the world to wear what we want...and no one wears a costume...is everyone brainwashed by highschool? is everyone boring? did everyone decide to grow up too soon?!? if you are young enough to have your parents pay for your rent/cell phone/food/clothes...you are definately young enough to wear a costume to school!! it's like the same thing with midrifts, spagetti straps, bikini tops and hats....everyone wanted to wear them...and now...? you are lucky to see a hat once a month! it really sucks....my conclusion is that we have been brainwashed by highschool...even i don't wear hats and i used to want to! or maybe just most of the fun people got weeded out through the process called "college"...any opinions?
the main thing that i am learning in college is how much people suck. in history- they sucked...now- they suck....don't people ever learn? talking to people in my vis 21 section makes me sick~ they are so naive and stupid and remind me of the 1500's european people who thought they were all cool and better than people...but really they weren't...they didn't take showers, they didn't understand other people, they couldn't see things from other people's point of view, they thought that somehow they were "higher" than others.... today's average clean cut boy (or girl) is about the same (except for he has at least learned about the concept of cleanliness!)...these people are so sheltered and cut off from other cultures....they have no idea about anything other than their own rich lifestyle. i'm sure if they had the chance, they would also kill and enslave indians or whoever else they found...they are just so out of it...so shallow and egocentric...all that matters to them is their own boring life and their twisted view on everything, they don't even understand how to write an art paper...how to describe something...they instead try to write on it's history or background, even though we were told not to! i don't know...i think most college people should be forced to live as a poor mexican in a place worse than TJ for at least a year...i really think people need it! not to have mommy and daddy pay for their cellphone bill *gasp!* ...or maybe even not have money to eat out everyday *is that possible?*...maybe to have to work just to be able to eat normal food...or to not have enough to eat...or to pay or their own rent or even to be cold or homeless!...can you imagine? people might actually become sympathetic or maybe even be able to understand other cultures and that there is more to life than who has the biggest truck or the most ambercrombie and fitch clothes (don't worry...i'm not talking about you kian!)...when are these people going to grow up? even if they travel, i'm sure they will learn nothing more than how much the wine in other countries cost, or maybe how rude their servers are, how un-perfect their hotels are...and that is all....they will never see life for what it is, never learn the value of things, never understand anything really.....this is probably why all the other countries hate and make fun of americans! (some) mexicans say that if you go deeper into mexico, out of the tourist areas...if you are white, you are most likely to be murdered....i don't blame them at all. if i was starving to death and heard about a whole country of people that all have cell phones, and waste money everyday, and don't even care that there are other people who work much much harder than them and make almost nothing...i would be mad too! it's too bad america has to be this way...and college will only let you learn a certain way...if you want to learn how to be human, or smart in a real way...try talking to poor people and people that value family and friends over money and success...
i find it funny that "white" people learned that it was okay to bathe everyday, or at all, from mexican people..yet they are still forever looked down upon...at least by those egocentric too-american-for-their-own-good-people...
go here and type in your name "to see what google.com thinks of you" and see if anything comes up: googlisms only one thing comes up for "may j*cob"...i think they took it from Mia's website....but funny things come up if you only use your first name or if you have a popular full name...
may likes: my girl friends who are so secure and confident that they can and do have lots and lots of fun with their girl friends, even if their boyfriend isn't there! they are the best because you can go out and actually have fun and develope your friendship...the girl isn't hunting down boys the whole night and she isn't depressed because she doesn't have her boyfriend with her... may hates: girls that are dependent on someone else (a boyfriend) to live, to breathe, or to have fun....
the images on my two favorite purses are NOT anna nicole smith or whoever!!! i'm sick of people asking that! one model can't be her because the mole on her face is in the totally wrong place, the other model is a guess model...her name is Eva Herzigova. and neither model could be her because they aren't that fat! I didn't even know that "anna nicole..." existed until people kept asking me...and i did some research, and i'll i have to say is "NO, NO, NO!....don't be rude to my purses like that!" okay, bye bye!
UPDATE: A website claims that my other purse really is marilyn monroe..."Details: Anything Marilyn Manroe is just impossible to keep on hand. This bag is no exception, I just cant keep them in. This Marilyn Manroe bag.........Marilyn's picture is on all sides and "
weeeeeeeee! the rave was soooooo fun! it was so neat to see everyone in their costumes and everything! we were there for 9 hours+ and i danced for at least 5 hours...four of them non-stop. it was so neat to be able to dance however i wanted and nobody cared! evreyone thought that i was a long-time raver and wanted me to give them lightshows and i said i didn't know how...but most people made me give them lightshows anyway...so i tried my best...lol....raves are so much better than clubs...it's so nice to get away for the horrible overplayed hip-hop music and the pathetic people who go to 18and over clubs.....yay! too bad raves are so expensive..or i would go all the time! lol.... anyways time to TRY to do homework...i'm so behind...ahhhh! see Pix of my halloween-rave costume! more pix!
it's so nice to have two-way friendships! it's also nice to have people who are actually there for you/help you out when you need them! Thanx you two!...you know who you are, (although you don't know eath other..lol)...yay may goes to a halloween rave tomorrow! i think i'm going to dress as a fairy...but not quite sure yet...almost 5am, maybe i should go to bed now! need plans for Oct. 31? Come with me and Chris and whoever else to Canes (of couse it's a club! lol)...and wear a costume...and it will be fun! tix are presale only and sell out..... here's there box office number 858 488 9690 $10 per ticket or so...18+ ...3 dance floors (one is outside, "overlooking the ocean"), and good music....
my one and only recorded song/poem thing is now on the web. (yay!) click here to hear it on mp3.com it's very unfinished and rough-draft...but hey, at least i have something, right?! anyone who hasn't seen my red-hair pix...look below for links!
does anyone else besides me think that my website is mostly negative? LOL. i just noticed... tee hee.
Anybody heard that song "complicated" ? anyone SEEN the video? Well, if you watch it with NO sound, you may think it to be punk music, BUT it is FAR FAR FAR from that. it sounds a lot like pop-country to me. I hate country and i hate pop. I do like punk though, but obviously people in Canada DO NOT have a clue what punk music is!! What really makes me sick is this: "Avril Lavigne- Offical site of skater-punk Avril Lavigne, read her biography, view some pictures, and listen to downloadable sound clips of her songs." HELLO?? "skater-punk" ??? Just becauser she is trying to be cool and anti-preppy and wearing hot-topic clothes, does not make her punk! LOL how can her OFFICAL site say that she is a "skater-punk"?? That is just too funny! I bet she doesn't skate either! She can't even spell skater...on her site/song it's spelled Sk8tr,...and it is supposed to be sk8r ..... the 8 makes an "ate" sound, you don't need an extra "t" !!!....oh well... whatever...it just pisses me off that people are starting to think that THAT is punk music, just cuz she dresses that way! or halfway punk-ish. errr!
speaking of stupid people....a girl is transfering to ERC from revelle....she claims it's easier! what a stupid girl....what drugs is she on???
why is the internet soooo slow?! err! To all roomates and people that do not know how to wash dishes: use HOT water, wash the whole dish, scrub, rinse well then dry. cold water doesn't work. go buy some parents! they were supposed to teach you this stuff. what is this world coming to?! (at least take 'foods class' or read magazines...they tell you this stuff...some of it at least) ....also...don't defrost meat on the counter or in un-running water, or in hot water, unless you would like to die! this is especially directed to last year's bitchy roomates. but maybe i want them to die..?..oh well...now maybe they will live...what have i done!? ok, going to shut up now...lol...goodnight...
hey everyone! NEW PIX! YAY! this blogspot website is gay, so i can't upload pix onto it....the ones you see are stolen from other sites...LOL...so you have to use links to see my pix! sorry! here they are: new pix! more new pix! and more! there's only 3 pictures per page...hehe! don't be shocked by them! they are kind of 'random' to people who don't really know me that well! and a boy has already hated them and told me that i was ugly. so please like them, k? clothes are a form of art to me, and just because i look a certain way, doesn't me i am that way. ( i think the boy thought i was one of those emo-indie type people, and he hates those...so maybe that's why he hated my pix...and hated me....cuz he started cussing at me for no reason....may was sad.)
also new: see the colors of my comment box! they are new and pretty! ohmygod!! ahhh!...get me away from the computer!! ahhhh...save me! it's eating up my time....i need to do homework....i can't get away...it's holding my fingers to the keyboard, i swear! lol
aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh! on no! what did i do??? i went to my main comment page for once in my life...and somehow deleted all the comments that were written before July or so! ahhhh! did i do it...or was it automatic??? how do i get them back?? ahhhh!.....oh well i guess. sux.
does someone want to write my mmw paper topic/question for me? pleeeease?! i'll give you a dollar! lol
everyone, go shopping for costumes! lots and lots of them! it's fun to dress up! everyday should be halloween!
so i had figured out that my boyfriend's drummer had spilt beer into my printer...due to the smell and the beer stains on the paper...(this is what i get for "safely" storing my printer in the garage)....ok so my printer was halfway working like usual (stupid NEW printers! errrr!) and then the paper kept getting more and more stuck, which is not one of my printer's usual diseases.....finally it just wouldn't print at all and started to make funny noises...so finally, after not having a printer for 2 weeks, i thought i might as well waste an hour of my day and fix it...or at least try, so ith much trouble, i get it out from way under and behind my ucsd-warren desk and unplug and open the stupid thing....and what do i find? a NAIL! wedged deep into my poor printer! using a pen and tweezers and half of my homework time, i finally get the thing out!! AND...MY PRINTER IS STILL NOT WORKING....Ahhhhhhhhhh! ...........so then after printing "test" pages and so...it starts to print again...so it seems as though my printer works TODAY.....but will it work tomorrow? the story continues..... LOL.............. TO SEE THE STUPID NAIL click here!
they have resorted to advertising on fruit. more specifically banannas. "Bake with Splenda no calorie sweetner" it says on my roomate's dole bananna. it's sad. very sad.
NEW SCREEN NAME for AIM (even though i don't use AIM much....) i'm sick of looking at starprincessmay everywhere!!! my new screen name, well not new, but the one that i'm going to use (until i get sick of it too!) will be babypixiestar.............okay that's all.
errrrr...another dumb boy asked me for my number, and he did it in such a way that there was no way that i could so "no" without looking stupid or really bitchy...and he's in my section for mmw....and i don't think i want to make any enemies quite yet.....BOYS SUCK! ...as Joann says, (and i have done,lol) "....throw rocks at them"
***to Lisa, Jena, Joann: i miss you guys!.....it's really saddening for me to see your websites, and your pictures, and that you guys are STILL friends...i mean it's actually really cool, but it just sucks that i didn't get to be part of your lives, and how i had to move away in the middle of high school...and then i wasn't allowed to talk to you guys on the phone for what, like 3 years?...and now that i'm "free" so to say, it feels like i can't even call you... it's like any connection we used to have has been completely disintegrated....like i remember Joann and I writing 2-8 page letters to each other and so, ALL throughout 8th grade and part of 9th....(until Adam came along and stole Joann...LOL), and Lisa and I used to make fun of our 8th grade (English??) teacher together, and hate 9th grade PE together, etc...and it's like now, now i don't know if i even know you guys anymore....i mean, i wonder, if i saw you guys again, would we feel like strangers? It sucks so much (for me), you guys went on living your lives just like normal, and i had to change schools again & again, and never was able to find friends like you again....and i never felt "at home" anywhere....and now it's like i can never get home...there's no "home" to go to....sometimes i just wish i could go back in time, you know? and the worst thing is that with as much as i miss having you guys as friends, and miss everything in my past, i'm almost sure that no one feels that same way about me....because you guys all had each other, and your school, and your houses....everything was the same for you, but for me, all i had was memories of you...and it kind feels like if i went back to Anaheim, everything would still be the way it was, suspended in time, just the way i left it....but i know it can never be the same.....A year ago, i finally saw Johanna again.....(we used to have 'best friends' necklaces and all...) and it was so weird...it's like i knew who she was, but i didn't know her anymore....and it felt so weird....but maybe that's just cuz she's kinda shy...i dunno...i just know that life if really boring sometimes without people like you guys in it.......xoxo ~me
la la la...just got back from TJ (and of course ran to the shower!)....i'm now eating pizza...hehehe....anyways it was my first night, in what seems like FOREVER, hanging out with "the guys" (or you know, any guys at all, pretty much)....it was pretty fun, aside from the lack of good music (we must have just missed it!) I also got to dance with a girl on the stage-thingl! yay a girl! and then i met a girl friend! just like i was wishing for! and she even seems fun! okay...well goodnight...i hope this makes sense in the morning!
some people try to take something that they adore and capture it,...keep it all to themselves...totally unaware that "that something" just might not want them. (~of boys liking girls))
