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hardly anyone knows the real me. even my so called friends don't know me that well. i don't want to waste my time and say something important or "deep" or "real" because i know that it would be forgotten in the next five minutes anyway, so what's the point? and that's IF they even were listening in the first place!! it's easier just to not talk. people are really only interested in themselves, so i don't need to tell them anything anyway. they don't ask, they don't care, i don't tell. it is sad, but true. the only person who has actually taken time away from the mirror to get to know me is chris. he is the only one in this world that fully understands me.



no matter how hard you try, you just can't stereotype me...so don't try. it's annoying and childish, and it doesn't work. [although there were times when i wished that i fit in somewhere...] i don't fit into any catagory. i'm not punk, i'm not a raver, i'm not a hipster or a scenester, an emo kid or anything else. i am little bits and pieces of everything...you would be too if you went to 20 schools and lived in all the places that i have! I think that lables are stupid and annoying, yet people insist on putting themselves and others into categories, so sometimes lables can be useful when describing people. i've had almost every type of people for friends: 'gothic' people, wanna be gothic people, hipsters, scenesters, ravers, preppy track team people, people who dress 50's, skaters, punkers, asian and mexican girls who act like valley girls, cholos and cholas, groovers, rich boring white people, stupid white trash druggies, dirtbiker people, normal people, emo kids, band guys, etc, etc, etc...
people that know me classify me as a "may"...either that, or they are terribly confused. hehe
i like being myself, i like not conforming to one group of people, but it's hard sometimes that way.

more facts...
I lived in foster homes for the last 7 years of my before age 18 life.
pain is not a stranger to me, at all. it has been with me long enough to qualify as my best friend. but i wish it would just go away, for good.
I have had too much life experience, please take it back.
I often feel like i am over 100 years old.
I like to act like i'm 5 years old.
I have never done any type of drugs. period.
I never will.
I hate wearing lots of clothes: they are uncomfortable, but, I love clothes.
I make and design some of my clothes.
I cut my old clothes and make them better.
my clothes that i didn't make are still interesting or different. hopefully.
I (used to) love anything that sparkles, is rainbow, or glows in the dark.
I like to be different than everyone, I like to have my own ideas. I believe in Freedom and I believe that we should not criticize people or be hypocrites (I think i still do it though...) I am famous for holding two conflicting, contradicting points of view, opinions, or ideas, at the same time.
I LOVE (most) electroclash, and like SOME 80's, (some) synthpop, (some) indie, (some) punk, SOME ska, SOME rave music, SOME emo, and other random stuff i don't know how to "lable"
(some bands i like: the cure, denali, berlin, kraftwerk, azure ray, depeche mode, blonde redhead, modest mouse, deftones, team sleep, adult., avenue d, peaches, the faint, miss kittin, felix da housecat, ladytron, tricky, portishead, pj harvey, air, benny benassi, cat power. chicks on speed, anthony rother, le tigre, daniel ash, death cab, the postal service, death in vegas, elliot smith, far, figurine, soviet, fischerspooner, freezepop, garbage, no doubt, moving units, the rapture, gary numan, gravvy train, hooverphonic, ima robot, no knife, a perfect circle, nin, joy division, new order, duran duran, zeromancer, orgy, mindless self indulgence, vast, superheroes, pink floyd, sun kil moon, mogwai, soft cell, the sounds, the stills, system of a down, the smiths, the shins, pedro the lion, the walkmen, morphine, blur, smashing pumpkins, placebo, bright eyes, skinny puppy, scarlet symphony, mount sims, slowdive, the autumns, patsy cline, material issue, bauhaus, richard x, the lovemakers, xoxoxo, circ, the pixies, the flaming lips, visage, dresden dolls, snow patrol, keane, swayzak, ima robot, bjork, sublime, interpol, franz ferdinand, the unicorns, armand van helden, etc.)
I like cats
My belly button is pierced.
I like california rose wine. It actually tastes sweet and not bitter.

i have 2 step brothers, and 3 half brothers:
Rhy is 26 or so and lives in Riverside
Drinnin is 23 and just graduated from Boston University
David is 19 and lives in Alaska
Peter is about 14 and lives in AK, also
Mark is about 12 and is adopted, he lives in CA
my dad is a big jerk and he lives in AK
my mommy "drifts" from CA to NV, flys in airplanes all the time, and once lived under a tree! she is very fun and adventurous! i love my mommy!

hair color: blonde red red and blue blonde and pink blonde blonde w/green streaks blue and green blue and purple purple and red black-ish purple black black and blonde-ish
eyes: blue
height: 5'5" without shoes
...with shoes: 5'9+"
weight: about 120 lb.s (I said ABOUT. maybe I'm trying to sound skinnier so photographers will want me as a model.)
b-day: march 10th 1983
my band: ____________? (add me as MAYSTAR on Myspace.com for now.)
interests: singing, dancing, bodyboarding, painting, making clothes, kissing, modeling, rollerskating, skateboarding, acting, playing dress up, taking pictures, writing poems, talking, debating, arguing, thinking? (hehe)

electroclash & 80's clubs:
* Club Synthetic in LA
* Club Bang in LA
* Miss Kitty's Parlour in LA
* Club 80's <<----hate it, but hang out there to see friends.
* Transport
* Vice Versa
* Faction-6
* Rockboxx
* Spatuland

bars to just hang out at:
The Side Bar
The AC Lounge/Air Condiontioned
Livewire (Yeah!!)
The Standard (in downtown LA)
The Casbah
The Ken Club (Neon Beat)
The W Hotel bar

dancing in TJ, mexico.
raves (sometimes)

Lulu's cafe - downtown SD
Lestat's
Influx

the cliffs at night.
blacks beach (sometimes i feed the chipmunx [squirrels] with my friends there).
watching the sunset on the 11th story of muir.

out to dinner in downtown.
Arrivederci (the pizza place, not the resteraunt)
Rice (in the W hotel)
jumping off of things and doing flips off of things...(like giant sandunes)
randomly offroading at night.
I HATE most parties...they are always lame and boring.
climbing trees! weeeee!
pretending that I am 5 years old!
skateboarding
bodyboarding
hookah bars sometimes (boring)

53...
in my endless quest for self confidence, i assumed that if i kissed lots of boys it somehow meant that i was pretty, and thus worthy of living in this superficial world. I finally realized that boys will kiss absolutely anything, in most cases; as long as it's a girl! now i kiss boys just for fun... my first kiss was the worst. an ugly boy physically forced me to kiss him, at age 13. i didn't kiss back. it was so gross. he ruined my first kiss!!

1. Vladimir Palacios
2. Miguel Castellanos
3. A.J. Phillips
4. Chris Acosta
5. Cesar
6. Scott Foster
7. Wesley Zwickl
8. Ricky Woods
9. Cory King
10. Jamie Leibert
11. Chris Rogers
12. Chris M.
13. Tony
14. Shawn
15. Shaun Vasquez
16. Jesse
17. Dave
18. Shain
19. Derrick
20. Chad
21. Mike
22. Kris Crawford
23. Kyle Brown
24. "Medo"
25. Matt Gile
26. Anthony Bowman
27. Kian M.
28. Todd
29. Mark
30. Justin
31. Alex
32. Matt Elder
33. Tyler
34. T.J.
35. Josh Feldman
36. Phil Clark
37. Steve
38. Brandon T.
39. Matt
40. Taylor G.
41. Jason Grier
42. Tom Driscoll
43. Jamile
44. Mateo
45. Gregg Barnett
46. Shiloh Nabors-Bloxton
47. Justin Dutta
48. Josh J. Wheeler
49. Blake Doria
50. Morgan
51. Gabe Vega
52. Lance
53. Justin


oh yeah, p.s. i put this info here mainly for me, so i can remember. lol

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